(Trying To?) Taking An Ex Back

Well.... I just gotta say.... I knew this was a big mistake, and it is. It was. Plain and simple. It just was.

I usually have a one and done attitude in relationships. I have no problem in being in a relationships, and prefer them. I haven't (till a month ago) taken an ex back for any reason. I don't keep numbers, i don't have social networking accounts, so i don't keep them around on those - they're cut off.

Long story short. For some insane reason... i just wanted to fuck her some more - purely physical reason (chick isnt that hot) *goes back to listening to my main head*... seen my ex, from over a year ago, at a block party. We talk for the first time in over a year - Long story short; get drunk and fuck.

Well then we start talking again, and fucking as well. Not as much as i would prefer. I really do have preferences ya know!

Re-establish main point - THIS WAS A BIG MISTAKE

Not only did everything i hated about this chick came back tenfold, she in her character herself has dipped into totally "worthless" territory even more so than before.

This relationship was incredibly short before. It was actually a good relationship, but the unraveling - at light speed attributes no less - was very brutal and nasty. This is a relationship that she will admit herself, that she ruined, she fucked up, and she ended. I basically got blind sided.

This litte reunion has lasted almost exactly as long as the original relationship. Less sex though - THAT DEFINTELY DIDN'T HAVE ANY EFFECT OR SPED THIS UP IN ANY WAY!

Man, in the last 8 days, i haven't been so pissed off at a woman in my life. I feel like SUCH a fucking retard for even thinking of letting this chick even remotely back in my life on any level. I honestly am disgusted with myself. Like, i feel about myself probably similar to what a whore feels like. A self aware, inward loathing coke-whore.

What was even more mind boggling, is within the week of "reuniting" i fucked two other chicks. You'd think i'd just shrug off this skank of human rag, but no... This shit really got to me. Not like i was trying, unlike the first time around. It really didn't boil down to that though. It's just the fact that i even wasted brain chemicals and twitches to summon a thought of even imagining of doing this - let alone.... FUCKING DO IT.

Wow. I suck. Totally at a bottom. Completely mind fucked. I still don't know why a part of me wants this to work out. I have no clue. I was never in love with this chick. So why the fuck do i still care a bit!!!! WHY!?!?!? It's not a hell of a lot, but it's way too much to have at this point.

*SIGH*

Why does the girl i like the most right now live over an hour away? That sucks. Just a random thought.

Oh yeah - I deleted miss worthless trash rag's number. For real this time. It's pretty much what got me thinking about this so much. Totally the catalyst for the thread, lol.

This chick can't stay in my phone for no more than 5 weeks either, Lol. So not worth the pussy i got from it. SO NOT WORTH IT.

[Bas]

So... was she any good in bed at least?

[mama]

my comment is stop getting drunk and fucking/starting relationships with girls you really wouldn't approve of possibly mothering your bastard children.

[mama]

cuz i feel that this is coming.

[Bas]

my comment is stop getting drunk and fucking/starting relationships with girls you really wouldn't approve of possibly mothering your bastard children.

LOL






she has a point though.

[mama]

LOL






she has a point though.

was totally on a serious note but i guess my wording did bring a little bit of lolz with it.
i mean, i'm not a prude ass bitch but it's simple.
watch who you befriend/fuck/love and save yourself from a shit load of heartache, drama and trouble.

[Bas]

Celibacy works too..

[mama]

Celibacy works too..

so hot.