Question for humans...

[Bas]

Is worrying about being paranoid a sign that you're paranoid, or am I just being paranoid?

[mama]

wait.
this doesn't read like a cry me a river post.
why am i editing.























































anyway, i have major anxiety about anxiety.
i have this book called "lessons in truth" from this 9 foot tall woman from 1890 and seriously it's so fucking zen, it's helped a lot.
everyone should read it.
it does mention jesus and god but only in a zen/god is everything/everyone/everywhere type of deal no evil/hell/sin bullshit.
so fucking good.
and ilu bas, stop worrying and paranoiding.

I have constant anxiety about everything...right now I am all pissy because all my IRL friends are going out like they always do (and I always did when I lived there) and now I am not there...but they are still going out...why would that piss me off? I don't know why. but I am. maybe its jealousy...but it doesn't feel it...maybe I am paranoid that they are having more fun without me there...maybe they don't want me there...IDK BUT I KNOW I FUCKING HATE THIS CITY! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-ck

[mama]

also, did not realize this was in cry me a river.
editing post/

[GOD]

I worry about worrying a lot and seem to just barely maintain a fine line mostly but not always.

[mama]

I worry about worrying a lot and seem to just barely maintain a fine line mostly but not always.

read my fucking book.